sayonara

TUESDAY.
30092008.






disaster omg. I'm gonna scream to heaven.
PLEASE don't let me to change my handphone number A-G-A-I-N.
(all the close ones definitely will murder me ONCE AGAIN.)
oh-my.
I'm still wondering how they can be SOO patient.




I went to Starbucks yesterday.
another disaster. the drink is terrible.
it just make me wanna puke.
seriously.
Starbucks will be closing down in another few yearS time. trust me!
thank GOD, I'm not gonna pay that bill =P







SAYA PUN BALIK KAMPUNG!!




I will be back on Thursday night.
Say you miss me!
haa.
leave a message>>
text me.
call me pun boleh (=


/GBU people/

tagged by missy

RULE :Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits /things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
No TAG backs!




1. I need few alarm clock just to wake me up xD
2. I'm a 247 talking machine =P
3. I can live WITHOUT my phone.
4. Now I realise I can't live without my spec.
5. It's a must to hang out with my beloved ones.
6. It's a must to get out from my house during weekends.
7. Sweet stuff will never ever exist in my menu.
8. The land will be flooded if you make me cry.
9. I hate being neglected.
10.You will be out of words due to my lameness.
11. I will scream if I'm too bored.
12. Never ever forever say the word PROMISE, if you didn't mean to do so.
13. I really need people to nag me for my studiess.
14. I ♥ beaches. sunset. raining days.
15. Everything I am not, made everything I am (=


people to tag:
vanissa ng
su ann mui
leena
thu yuan
jeremy goh
nigel
sue wern
tien chin

a shot to kill the pain

SUNDAY.
28092008.







Isn't it funny how day-by-day passes by yet nothing changes but when you look back everything changed.


clouds are pale, my stomach is aching.
I feel so week for this one whole month!
can you imagine I refused to consume FOOD?
definitely not right?
for ME, FOOD is A MUST (=
but it happened on me, and I felt that it's gonna turn from bad to worst.
I only take one meal a day for this whole month..
ahh, all the food look untempting xD
I cant even finish up a bowl of tom yum mee the past few days.
I think I need to see a doctor.
this is what I get for not taking care of my health.
oh-my.
I slept around 0200 after finishing my text.
and I was amazed when I open my eyes early in the moring, it's just 0745!!!
O.O great, so mum brought me out to eat dim sum'
the same thingy, I didn't really eat much.
just a few scoop of everything?
then we decided to tag along with my aunty since they're going to see the doctor.
HAA.
my doctor said that 心思过渌*
sorry duno which lu*
he said in a scienctific way, which my heart dunno what bla bla
and it turned me this way.
somehow, it's just so true!!!
he said I will refuse to go out, no appetite, stress and feel down.
the doctor damn* yeng.
YEAH, I rejected quite a number of people for outing.
sorry eh (=
BUTTA, NOW I feel like going out to GRAB SOME NICE FOOD.
anyone have any idea?
anyone wanna join me?
AHH, it's gonna be 1800.

endless hours is still counting..



*hopefuly I will be wise enough to study through out the whole week.
people, please continue nagging me! keep it up (=

God bless buddies, have a nice day.

i loath fairy tales

FRIDAY.
26092008.





I wanna be,
be the happy ending.
so little time yet so many things has got to be done..



WOHOO. TRIALS
my week was a MESS.

okay, lets talk about MONDAY.
I actually attended school, like what I had expected..
Aiman and I was the ONLY two.
the ohm of studying was not in me on that particular day.
and YEAH, teacher asked me whether I intend to go home or not.
haa.
at first, I refused. WTH*
one hour later.. (which was 8 something)
I called Lih to pick me up.
I cant stand the atmosphere.
I cant get my ohm.
hee. =)
what a coincidence, Lih and her dad went to 19 to grab their breakfast.
and her dad actually fetched me. just to get out from the jail. xD
I walked out THROUGH THE MAIN GATE.
THAT SIMPLE (=
before that I worried what if I cant get out of the school.
haa, like what the school principle said.
SCHOOL IS OUR SECOND HOME =D
indeed, it's just so true. evil laugh*
and I went to Lih's house.
Add Math Add Math Add Math and Add Math for that day.
but of course, never ever dump FOOD. haa.
thats all for Monday, I think.
sorry, my brainy is not functioning well!!! hee.



WEDNESDAY, I went to MCD drive thru in the night.
I did not go there for food hunting but to solve NUMBERS and seek for SOLUTIONS!!
THIS is one of the wonderful thing in my world.
haa.
met Lih and others..
they were so tension. OMGosh.
what to do, smart people is like this.
had fun with them seriously. hee.
and I met lots of SU people too.
haa.
everyone was cracking their brainy, so do we.
all of us left MCD around 10 something and Lih and I headed to our SECOND BROTHER'S house.
haa. this is because Lih's brother was still in Cameron. aiks aiks*
we stayed at his house for one an a half hour.
we didn't know he have gotta sit for his exam the next day until he told us.
OMGosh!
so sorry!!! and he planned to go his friend's house after we're done to study for his exam =0
well, smart people like him can do it!! hee.
Lih fetched me home. and I reached my house around 12 A.M.
grabbed my uniform then we headed back ho her house.
and WOW~ this is the first time my mum let me stay over in my friend's house.
not the first time la.
usually they just won't approve me to do so..
we slept around 0100 and woke up around 0330
well, we really rocked the house and turned it upside down just for the sake of Add Math =)
haa. sorry no picture for that day.
you will get a heart attact if you look at it =D



THURSDAY.
nothing much. sat for my VERY LAST TRIAL'S PAPER!
it was really tough. seriously.
went to tuition in the night.
OMGoshh, add math again.
I learned something today.
altho it's TOO LATE for trials, but definitely not too late for my SPM!!
OMG OMG OMG.
I had a crazy month. and a FATIGUED WEEK.
I slept around 0100 everyday and woke up plus morning call others at 0300!!
GREAT, pimples all popping out. panda eyes is getting worst.
owh my.
I got to take a GOOD and LONG SLEEP =D



FRIDAY, yeah, it's friday~
AHH.
and WE waited for this day for agess.
haa. for a month laa.
this time will be a little different.
WE will be watching in David's house.


MONEY NOT ENOUGH 2.

this movie released on the 28th of Ogos.
today, 26th of September.
this is the first time WE're so out-dated man.
YEAH, the very first time (=
WE usually watch every single movie on the 1st day.
haa, but never mind, we had lotss of fun..
this movie is not like what I had expected to be a funny and lame one, but more to dignity in everyone hearts.
it's a nice one. =D
the guys went out to grab some food.
so, I took my cell phone and snap a few shot..



she was fatiguedd.
finally she ended her Bio and EST today.



spot my blue nails
and his family potrait
=))



*JULIAN
spot the bag?!
I got use okay, I just don't bring it eveywhere.
cause IT'S REALLY NICE, I can't afford to turn it filthy..




ahh, at last I finish my post. xD
haa.
and yeah, I sms with a long-lost-friend?
er, not really xD
hee.
anyway, GET A LIFE buddy (=



with ♥, mental retarded barney lover.

the elements in this girl

TUESDAY.

23092008.

Beach, my LIFE.

I will never change my PASSION.

Barney is LOVE.

Spec is what I NEED.

Swimming is a MUST.

Food is ALWAYS.

Happiness is what I WANT.

SPM, my current THOUGHTS.

Distinction, my AIM.

Lameness is what I SHARE.

N-u-m-b-e-r-s are forever MYSTERY.

Sweet plans are always ATTACHED.

His kindness is what I'd CAPTURE.

=I , my current MODE.

some declaration

FRIDAY.
19092008.





TRULY MADLY DEEPLY SORRY !!!
HMM, I think I had expressed myself in the very wrong way?
well, I just had an EMOTIONAL month, that's what I can say.
maybe you can't read my mind, or you just didn't noticed.
there're always a time that i will keep all things in me, in the very deep side.. (=
sometimes, you just won't realise.
sometimes I might be laughing like some retard, talk lots of nonsense, yet sometimes it's just so not TRUE.
sometimes you just don't know how much i've cried.
how much i care about my studies and the beloved ones..
it's time to release my anger and the fustration IN THE RIGHT WAY..
like what I've always say, NEVER EVER ASK ME HOW'S YOUR PAPER TODAY.
you know I would just smile weakly in return..
cause I know if I start talking, i'll start blabbering..
and overall it's just MY complains.. everthing is just a-l-a-s-a-n.
SORRY TO LIH. DARREN. WAN LING. HUI YAN. SUE WERN. VV. and many more..?
sorry for all the emotional acts. the fustrations. the hush ones. the yell. and the tears?
TRUELY SORRY LA KAY =)
well, there will be more emotions to come, no worries, i'll be fine.


♥good friend is the purest of all God's gifts, for it is a love that has no exchange of payment♥

we went to BAZZAR AGAIN!!
hee.
great news! we're gonna change back to our usual time. I mean tuition.
tata bazzar. tata to the fatigued afternoon! and never forget tata to the hunger!!!
got to relax myself in my bath tab!!
tata buddies.

random

THURSDAY.
18092008.

Where is my will, my power?

And my determination?

the self discipline in me?

mentally break down, right here, right now..

and I'M SO SORRY for the hush one today (=

Current mode:: s-i-c-k

**have fun buddiess !!

birthday birthday (=

TUESDAY.
16092008.




HAPPY BITHDAY TO DAVID LEE CHUN KEAT!!




AND








HAPPY GLAMOUR SEVENTEEN TO MELANIE LIOW!!

n-u-m-b-e-r-s

MONDAY.
15092008.



I had my Accounts paper today.
sux..
well,you know.
I just don't like N-U-M-B-E-R-S !!
I cant handle it that well (=

and here goes some SS pictures for the day.









HARD ROCK!
WE ROCK!! (=


got to study study study and study!
ciao..

another lifeless day

SUNDAY.
14092008.




HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL!
HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL!


for this lady, just another dull Sunday.
owh my..
locked herself in her own sweet room, buat apa?
probably studying? or sleeping?
whole family went out for movie.
and I didn't manage to go David's open house.
yes, everyone had their very own schedule.
Miss Lih went to David's house.
Mr. Darren Soh gathered with his relatives.
pity me. alone in house, got to grab food by myself.
but it was peaceful at home!
m-u-a-h-a-h.



well, I think I'm the only one who have not step into his house eh.
never mind never mind, next week!! (=
I'm kinda bored here, soo lets take a view of his house.
[curi pics from lih. xD]

his study table.

look at this combination of piggy and moo. hee.

his drum set and her sister's piano.

David's family potrait!
cool uhh? (=


and here, a part of the conversation between Lih and I.
Lih:: Do you feel MALU? you send the wrong message to David.
Me:: WTH! omgosh. malu sial.
Lih:: Haa.
Me:: Still watching tv in his house?
Lih:: Yeah. at first watching with his granny. and thn one bunch all awtching. now, with his granny again.
Me:: Ahha, i see.
Lih:: I'm lying down so slumber.. like my own house.
Me:: I can imagine that! (=
so on and on..


okay people, thats all for now (=

wasted another day

SATURDAY.
13092008.



Hate it when somebody tell me that there are new arrival of dresses.
because I will definitely be there.
as what I've expected, I went there-Forever21.
hell yeah, somehow I love this dress!!
soo so much!
arww, sad case, the size was unfitting-over sized.
ISH!!!
so, I had to say tata =(
I tried some other dresses too..
It was pretty.
but the problem was size again @@
never mind (=

<3



small kid.
Yeah, I know.




I like this too.
it's a top actually, butta ...

I spent around one and a half hour, tried almost 10 dresses, ended up I didn't get anything xD
cause I have better things to grab (=
hee.








RAMEN.


this was what I bought.
I loveeee the heels. OMG.
haa.
met Kean as well (=



stop here.
have fun buddies.
ciao.

fridayy

FRIDAY.
12092008.



Friday!
well, this is the second weeks that exam go on..
I'M SERIOUSLY HAD A BAD BAD WEEK, MOOD SWINGY GILA.
I will post about IT after everything is done.
thanks to chong xin wei!!
because MY class actually present.
they came just because of me. [except Adrian and Aiman laa.]
weehee.
each and every single teacher came in/pass by our class praise us.
haa.
see I'm a great influence of my class =D
okay enough of bullshyt.

my lovely Friday schedule as usual, went to tuition and headed to BAZAAR.
erm, I actually walked to tuition. *geh kao
cause they say they will be not in time.
sooo, I decided to walk. smart feller.
ended up, I'm the last who reached there. [among us la]
smart girl =)
and yeah! we headed to Bazaar.
this time is with the usual four! how great ((=
we separated and start to grab our food and headed to Darren's house.
is a good news for Cheryl (=
he ask for it xD
because he got to be home before 6.00p.m.
so yeah, they dum everything to me and it was kinda heavy know..
it's look A LOT.
butta, when we started to eat, it seems something lost..
or maybe I ate it? xD
kay then, thats all for today.

/tomorrow schedule:: shopping.study?/

busy bee

try to fail, but not fail to try.

EXAM EXAM EXAMS

I'm currently busy with my trials, will update my blog on Friday.

tata.

HAPPY GLAMOUR SEVENTEEN

MISS WOO SUE WERN

the sexy one =)

a speech to speak

SATURDAY.
06092008.

Miss Amelia Chong Xin Wei.
06.09.1991.

I WANNA THANK FOR ALL THE WISHES THROUGH SMS. MSN. PHONE CALL. FRIENDSTER. FACEBOOK. SCHOOL AS WELL.

I WANNA THANK THOSE PEOPLE WHO CELEBRATED MY BIRHTDAY DURING THE HOLIDAYS. I APPRECIATE IT VERY MUCH =)

[the post-20082008.23082008.]

I WANNA THANK ALL OF YOU FOR ALL THE LOVELY PRESENT =D

I ♥ IT.


lifeless birthday ever?

nah, I can consider it was still okay.

on the phone with my friends for 6hours out of 24 hours on that day.

COOL gilakan! cause it's free! xD

muahha.

David and Lih gave me a last minutes surprise.

he called me to get out from my house for a minute. [it was almost 12.]

I was like er, okay.

I got the feeling that they're gonna do something AGAIN!

since dah kena once, so dah smart la.. hee.

I was shocked when i saw THEM =O

haa, they passed over the pressie then ciao.

cause they were with their parents!!

OMG i didnt know until they say they came here separately and with their parents too. xD

THANKS AUNTIES.UNCLES.

well, anyway, I'm gonna get more presents after trials =)

I'm looking forward for it! xD

more to come! wee.

♥ lots muaks.

all out

I'm telling YOU this now.
if I don't do so, I'd be facing mentally break down anytime. anywhere.
anyway this is not an earth-shattering secret.
everyone has their own problem, so do I.
everyone wished me happy sexy seventeen. glamour seventeen.
and they asked where you celebrate uhh?
had any fun?
I would just smile weakly in return :l
no high hope for this birthday..
and yeah, THIS IS WHAT I HAVE EXPECTED..
I was actually on the phone with my friend until 3 a.m.?
you scolded me and woke me up at 8 a.m.
well, it's okay, not the first time, I have been through this every weekends.
and yet your words never ends.
as usual you scolded me "wake up and study don't you know SPM is near "
"you should attend school today rather than having your good sleep on your bed"
deep deep inside of my heart, I hope that YOU will give me a peaceful day.
Or maybe just TODAY?
if you do so I appreciate that, it's more than enough.
I never had any sweet dreams.
can I decide to have fun rather than going to school on Saturday morning??
HEY, it's my birthday. I just want to have fun.
that's all. but it seems she's giving me a nightmare early in the morning..
and yeah, GREAT, as her wish, I rejected all my friends for outing and 247 stayed in my own sweet room.
NO TV. NO COMP.
lifeless birthday ever.
I was trapped in my own room and waiting for the time to fly just like that, without studying or doing something else.
I seriously feel like dying at that time.
never mind, I accepted it after a moment.
CAUSE MY LIFE IS ALREADY USED TO SUCH SITUATION.
I just have to overcome it, that's all.

STOP pretending how well you know me,
you just recognise me just from my outside. my appearance. my attitude.
deep inside, YOU know nothing about me.
not a single thing.
both of you can insult me from time to time
throwing harsh words towards me again and again
what I do will always be wrong
TILL NOW I NEVER EVER say a single word.
cause I know is just another fucking speech.
my heart is colder than ice since two years ago..
when you say something that really hurt me, you successfully leave a deep scar in me..
congrats..
I will never ever forget that in my life.
that particular day. those words. the way you spoke to me.
thanks for that. because of YOU, I'm already used to it.
again again and again, you will always compare me with him/she or whoever it is.
and you always want me to be like them.
are you happy IF I compare you with others?
MAYBE I should do so, then you will know how i feel deep inside of my heart.
but it will never happen.
cause I still know what is right and wrong.
I still respect you no matter how.
you can just tell them how much you want them instead of me.
I don't mind seriously, my life WILL definitely be BETTER!
I'm a human.
I'm not a perfect girl.
or I should say nothing is perfect.
you could only see imperfectly perfect! person in this world.
I'm not a foolish little girl.
I wont spill out all this without thinking the consequences.
but after all, this is what i want to say..
I'm just me. myself. and this is my life.
I don't need to follow others.
I don't wanna be.
I'm not lost. I know what m I doing.
you said I'm independent. YEAH, indeed, I'm one.
so, I will get what I want by myself, not from you.
for example, just like what I have own now, all by myself =)
you asked me for zillion times what I want to be after my SPM.
and I never ever want to answer you.
cause you already started insulting me before i told you.
so, what's the point of telling?
give you another chance to insult. tease me?
HELL NO!
both of you want me to study IT so badly after SPM.
I WOULD LIKE TO TELL YOU, NO MEANS NO!
you don't even let me to touch the computer for a second and you want me to study IT??
PLEASE, stop all your bullshitts!
even though sometimes I use the computer just to search some information that had to be done and pass it up in a short period of time, you will just let me use for a moment. after that you will start saying stop playing the computer, bla bla bla so on and on..
you will never like me hanging out with friends. go for a movie or do some window shopping with them.
cause you always think that it's a waste of time and money.
so every single time I would just hide the truth from you and when you found out, I'm gonna have a great day.
HELLO, I'm just having my sweet seventeen!
every teenagers did that!
you know how stubborn I m
you know I will never obey you [mostly]
you chose to treat me this way, what can I do?
I just have to react this way as well.
even friends of yours asked you to change the way you speak to me.
change the way you treat me..
but I know, it'll never happen.
Obviously..
I'm just a pathetic little bird that have no freedom at all.
I'm not your robot.
I don't obey each and everything things that you tell me to do so..
I'm a human that have emotions..
so please don't screw me up without any reasons, control your emotion, many people can tell that well!
you can easily see through my emotions through my face expression.
no doubt, my tears will come down easily.
but yet sometimes you will never know until i burst it out!
another thing which I really have to say is, I really hate it that both of you are so damn* pantang.
why are you both so concern about what people say but not yourself???
please don't ever pull me down with you.
you are just too attached with that stupid bomoh thingy or whatever thing it is.
YOU KNOW WELL, that I won't believe this kinda stupid stuff. some dirty spirit..
but you're still doing it and asking for some bullshyit answer from them about my exam and so on..
for me, it's just a dirty way and that particular person is telling you some dirty little secret of mine.
I still remember one of the incident that happened years ago, I actually went with you all.
and that particular person say that deep inside of my heart I'm trying to get away from my house.
indeed, I though of that.
but you know what, there's always a reason!
and ya, few days ago you told me that particular person say I will not do well in this coming exam and of course my SPM.
WTF.
is like 64 days to go.
how you know idiot.
you said that particular person gave you an unconvincing look and teased me that I'm not gonna do well.
unless I got to really study hard. cause my memory is bad.
I know myself pretty well. I know I have a bad memory.
so ya, of course I will be scared when I hear that.
but I just have to figure out by myself.
overall, it's just so not TRUE !
I WILL DO WELL =) you idiot.



** sorry for this long and sensitive post.
there is just too much to express.

=) have a nice day.
will update my birthday post SOON.
BE WITH ME =)

with love, lil worm.

1440 minutes to go

FRIDAY.
05092008.


nothing much happened in school today.
as usua,l only 4 girls and the *boyfriend's gang.
I rather go to school than staying at home,seriously (=
I had my very first paper on Wednesday - Chinese.
no offence for this subject, didn't attend any tuition, did not *attend my Chinese class in school often as well.. so ya, what else can i say?
but AT LEAST i still take this as ONE of the important subjects
well, I'm just a typical Chinese :P
I'm so so soo concern about my Chinese results and of course others too. hee.
here started our argument with teacher..
you must be wondering why I argue with OTHER class teacher about MY test paper.
weirdo!
overall, it's kinda like a debate in their class. haa.
before I forget, YESS!!
at last this retirement day has come!!
AHH~ this is the time WE [board of 2007/2008] free from tention
MUAHAH xD

after chinese class, we rushed to bm tuition.
people like me, will NEVER EVER take tuition(s) on friday. haa.
except for this time. because of Puasa. so, our usual time [wednesday night] changed to friday afternoon.
well, it doesn't seem like a good news for me..
cause i will start my crap again! ahha xD
so yeah, as what I have expected, I'm deep under the sea..
I'm fatigue!
haven't bath!
hungry!
same goes to them.
[David got to meet some VIP people so he didn't manage to come with us]
I kept on drinking water to shut myself up.
cause tuition ends at 5.00p.m.
and quite a number of Malay there [feel so bad for drinking water in tuition]
then suddenly, Lih say yum cha after tuition, BAZAR BAZAR! the nearest,USJ4.
yeah man! Darren and I became so alert after that and we can't wait until the clock strikes 5!
cause we haven't take our lunch, that's why hee.

after that we headed to BAZAR~
with di wei and chee hui. they went there to meet their friend.
then we started to walk and look for food! =D
we refused to eat unhealthy stuff.
we refused to buy expensive food.
so ended up..



roti john.
economical and nice (=
try it.



murtabak ayam.


coconut.
ignore her xD


did you notice he's always attached with his uniform?
hee.
i'm so lucky cause i got back home and change xD



he's really stress about his chinese paper..
thats why we need to go out to take a breath =)



dua poser! aha.


swing swing SWING!
no doubt, i heart it =)


candid shot =D

after finished everything, Lih sent us home.
thanks ya, once again!!
hee.
another fatigued day.
got to zz and recieve call and sms later, hee
have a nice day everyone.
ciao
=D

那角落

MONDAY.
01092008.



假期过了，考试到了

这整整九天还过了不一样的生活

很高兴， 很真实

当然也有一些不愉快的事情发生

...

倒数4天，没什麽好期待 =）

anyway..

♥ 生活输什麽都不能输心情 =D